RM has been out of town for a week on business. It has given me some time to be by myself, catch up on things that I need to do around the house, and most importantly let everything that has happened to "sink in".
I've been having dreamless and peaceful sleeps- haven't had those in a long time. I wake up feeling light and rested.
I was talking to RM on the phone last night. We talked about our day and then we talked about my family and the decision that I made to stay away from them.
We discussed how our life has been in the short time since making that decision. He's also been affected by my family's antics. I never realized how much my family's negative behavior affected him until he said this to me, "There's a quietness in my soul."
That one sentence sums up my feelings.
I no longer have the negative chatter in my head.
The burden that was put on my shoulders from my family....is gone.