Last week I was feeling happy- I still feel happy. It is not the kind of happy where you want to shout out to the world or that type of happiness where you feel like you're going to burst with joy.
The happiness I feel is more a feeling of peacefulness. I used to pray for the things that I wanted;
- more wealth
- more children
- skinnier body
- a job closer to home for RM
- success in everything I try
- to not be alone
- a healthy family
I've prayed for those things for a very long time and it hasn't happened, it may never happen. But I'm okay with it. I pray for the willingness to understand the Lord's will and to accept whatever comes my way.
Recently a few things has happened to my mother and serious health issues have plagued a favorite uncle of mine. I still don't understand why bad things happen to good people. They don't deserve it- no one does.
Sometimes the only thing we can do is pray and try to make each day a better day.
This quote perfectly describes how I feel:
"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections."
I may not always get what I pray for, but somehow I always get what I need.