Thursday, June 25, 2009

I'm still here....barely!

Did ya miss me??? This by far is one of the busiest summers I've had in a very long time. Though there are times that I have felt overwhelmed, it does make the day go by fast. Unfortunately, it doesn't leave a lot of time for posting on this blog or visiting your blogs!

Since I last posted, my eating hasn't been so great. I've kept up with the workouts, but they haven't been as intense or as long as I would like it to be. My motto has always been no matter how busy you are, do some kind of movement. Whether it's a walk around the block, intense house cleaning, or 10 minute workout. It's all about getting my butt into gear. I want to get into the habit of having some kind of movement even if I can't get myself to the gym.

Most of the time there are reasons why you fall off the wagon. If I want to continue to lose weight and have a healthy lifestyle, I need to analyze why I eat the way I do when I'm stressed. It's easy to say it's because it has been a hectic summer, but there are underlying reasons. Ones that I need to address rather than escaping it by binging. I've made a few heart wrenching decisions and often I wonder if it's the right one, but I know deep down inside its the right one for my family and most importantly for me.

One thing for sure that I need to work on is that I need to stop being so hard on myself. If I go to the gym, I berate myself for not being able to work out the full two hours. When I go out with some friends, I complain that I was the biggest person in the group. I don't buy myself any new clothes because I feel like I don't deserve it. (You should check out my wardrobe closet, there's hardly anything there!) Basically, I make myself into a martyr and my husband is getting sick of it! He actually sat me down and told me that if I can't love me for where I'm at right now, how can I love myself when I'm at my goal weight? I need to love myself now and be patient in the process. Easier said than done, but it can happen.

Surprisingly though my eating hasn't been great and a few days of binging, I haven't gained a pound this week! My husband believes it's because I still made a goal to do some kind of movement every day. (I learned that tip from Oprah's personal fitness trainer Bob Greene.) I'm still on Weight Watchers and it's been great. Though there were a few days of binging, I really believe that if I wasn't on Weight Watchers I would have gained back the weight that I have lost.

I'm recommitting myself today to my food plan with Weight Watchers, speaking positively about my body, and not binge. Today I make the decision to be healthy in mind, body, and spirit. Who knows what I'll do tomorrow...I don't care. I just know that today is important and I'm going to make each moment count.

Food for Thought: “Many fine things can be done in a day, if you don't always make that day tomorrow."


Jenn said...

I missed you!
Your husband sounds like a smart guy and is very supportive.
I'm a big stress eater myself, so I know where you're coming from. I'm still working on how to recognize when I'm eating because of stress and how to stop it. But we'll get there, we just have to keep on going!

Big Girl said...

Welcome back... I've been wondering aout you!
Sometimes it is hard to keep up the routine especially one where you were spending so much time working out. But, I agree, you need to do something, everyday.

Hang in there!

Pink Makes the World Go 'Round said...

Good for you for recommitting! I recommitted today, too, and it very well near killed me. I wish you the best of luck!

Wendy said...

there is so much to learn about yourself during this process....and i am about in the same boat as you are in. you really spoke to me.

everyday this week i have been "starting over" trying to find my inner power. today has been better.....but it is not over yet. least i havent given up....i promise to start over everyday if i have to.

kaseybobasey said...

Thank goodness you're back! I was going into HK withdrawls! :) Congrats on not gaining any weight...and hey, sometimes you just have to have a few days of binging to get yourself back on track...I know I do!! :) You keep it up, girl! You know I'm rooting for you!

tisha said...

~Welcome Back~ and good for you for recommiting to YOU and a healthy lifestyle. I love what you wrote about doing something physical every day. It doesn't have to be a marathon...just something. It really does improve my mood. Good luck!!!

Beth said...

Umm... I can't work out for 2 hours. You are a beautiful woman - inside and out. Quit being so hard on yourself. Eat and exercise to be healthy. And be yourself. You are AWESOME!

My 3 Month Challenge said...

Yes we missed you :) Glad you're back.

Your sweet hubby is very sweet and very right. You should definitely love yourself and what you are doing for yourself (the exercise, going on WW, making changes in your life).

You are doing great!! Celebrate every little thing and treat yourself to a nice new outfit! I think it might freshen you up and make you feel a little pampered :)

Patty said...

H.K., when I start getting a little down on myself, sometimes I look at my wonderful husband, and think to myself "What kind of woman would this man marry? Well, a really wonderful one, of course. Hey, that's me!!" :-)

Gigi said...

Yay - you're back!

The whole mental game is my biggest obstacle too. I've been doing a lot of reading, journaling and thinking about things to try to sort it all out. It has been a slow process but one that I think will ultimately help with the weight issue.

Hang in there. You've got lots of company.

Suzanne said...

Glad you had moment in your busy schedule to post! Life isn't easy when you're on the run. I'd like to tell you not to be so hard on yourself, but I'd be a hypocrite!:) So I'll say "Hang in there!" You've been doing great! Enjoy your accomplishments!