Tuesday, April 14, 2009

My Worst Enemy...Me

I am my own worst enemy. I'm angry at myself for not losing weight fast enough. I get angry that I haven't been exercising consistently. And there is no reason for me to get angry. I should get angry at myself. I put myself in that situation. I thought I would have lost a lot of weight by now, and I haven't.

Today my weight loss group cancelled meeting today. I breathed a big sigh of relief. Today is weigh in day and I was so scared to see what my weight would be. This past weekend, I have been on a sugar craze. Darn those stupid Easter candy! There's no more Easter candy because I ate them all and all I can think of is how much I want to eat more candy.

I don't know why I get so angry when I am my biggest obstacle towards weight loss. It's so stupid this endless cycle. I get on the bandwagon of exercising diligently, eating right, and record all my food intake and then BAM! A major crisis occurs in our household and I am back to not exercising and not eating right. Then it's a battle to get me back to the gym and eating right.

I need to prepare myself that life will always throw me a curve ball. There is always going to be some drama that will happen. I just need to go back to the basics and just work on today. It's a recurring theme for me, working on doing well today. I'm going to stop beating myself for past mistakes and just do well today.

Food for Thought: “Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future."
~Paul Boese


Karen said...

I completely agree with you. When it comes to eating, I am my own worst enemy. I just made a comment about this on another blog, looks like we are all thinking alike lately!

Just keep pushing forward, remember every little thing you do helps, and don't give in to all or nothing thoughts. (Easier said than done, I know)

Monica said...


I hope you start to feel better soon! I have been Bingy McBingerton lately...food is just so good, how can it be soo bad? But I have to remind myself that
A) I cant eat what I want and look the way I want
B) Its all in moderation.

Wendy said...

I know how you feel. I am learning about getting back on track myself. I know what you mean about how life can just throw you off your routines and it is really hard to get back on. I sooo did not feel like going to kickboxing class today but I made myself and i felt so good afterwards. your blog inspires me to do better. dont be so hard on yourself, we are only human right?

Go Cards said...

I think most can agree, I did great this morning worked out hard, then had a good breakfast, lunch...then ate a few cookies....and then a couple more...now it's getting close to dinner and a small one is what i will be having! Good luck and keep going, remember 1-2 lbs a week is a good thing...think of all the energy you will have...

Beth said...

I just read an article today that encouraged each person to plan for the "What ifs" of life.

I will _____ (define what exercise) if I am tired.

I will _____ (define what exercise) if I have to work late and/or I don't have much time.

I am going to think this one out because it takes away the excuses. I think I'll do sit ups when I don't have much time. Maybe I'll go on a 15 minute walk when I am tired instead of a marathon walk/run. I'll let you know how it works for me.

Cammy said...

I do understand your frustration! It's like we can't get out of our own way sometimes. The best thing to do is what you're doing: take it one day, one hour at a time.

Gigi said...

This rings so true with me, too. Getting back on track turns out to be harder than getting on track in the first place. I think you're on the right about reminding yourself that life will ALWAYS get in the way and not to let it derail you from your goals. We all get jammed up occasionally. Don't let it ruin all the progress you've made so far.